I know my last post may have sounded a little mellow dramatic or even scary.
But honestly, that whole thing they say about it all being worth it in the end, is 100% true.
Whatever pain I felt that day seemed worlds away when I got to hold Hudson for the first time. And now, a week later, that day actually feels like a million blurry years ago.
So, about our first week with baby.
Honestly, I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t also extremely tough to get through.
But, things are already so much better.
The main obstacle is the lack of sleep. I could deal with the pain and the stress if I were on my A game.
But, when you’re breastfeeding you have to feed baby every 2 1/2 – 3 hours.
(And that’s from beginning of feeding to the beginning of the next. So if I start a feeding at 4 a.m., spend about 30-45 minutes feeding him, then I have at the most 2 hours to try to fit in some sleep. And that goes on and on 24/7 for months.)
There were a lot of stresses that came along with breast feeding. Baby was frustrated and hungry waiting for the real milk to come in and we had latching problems which would lead to a screaming hungry baby. And all the while I was feeling pressured to get him to eat to help get rid of his jaundice.
Basically, there’s nothing quite like the guilt you feel when you are your child’s sole source of nutrition and he isn’t getting what he needs from you.
(These are all extremely common problems. And I think most nursing mother’s go through this in the first few days. But, like I said, when you’re not getting enough sleep it’s hard to think rationally.)
Luckily, I had Jamy there to help me make it through! These first few days of Hudson’s life, were probably the most thankful I’ve ever been to have married such a supportive man.
He changed all of the diapers for the first four days. Was a constant source of encouragement. And at times would even step in with a little tough love and force me to go to sleep (which was the most helpful).
Now, I can gladly report that Hudson is feeding extremely well.
Hudson lost close to a pound in his first few days, so we went back to the pediatrician today hoping for him to have just gained back 3 0z of it. Turns out he had already gained 10 oz. And now the doctor is actually telling us to regulate his feeding times a little bit. lol
So, if you’re stressed about breast feeding… Just know that whatever you’re going through is common and everything will be ok in the end.
It only takes time and a lot of patience!
(And, remember, even if breast feeding doesn’t work out for you, there is nothing wrong with that! My brother, husband and I were all formula babies. And we’re all healthy, strong, intelligent (some more than others, lol) members of society!)
Some milestones from Hudson’s first days…
I have already been the victim of flying pee. (Hazards of mothering a boy.)
He met our fur-baby Bella, who is OBSESSED with him!
I’m so in love.